Overall, before Chapter I begins, John's mental state is in shambles, filled with self-loathing and guilt over a failed exorcism, among other stressful matters. There's an underlying implication throughout the series that he's somewhat suicidal, secretly wishing for things to have changed all the way back to his first exorcism. As the series progresses, he tries to remain noble despite encountering demons, monsters, and various evil forces. In his journey, everything he goes through serves as both a test of faith in God and in himself.
Witnessing chaos, whether he brought it upon himself or not, John remains unusually quiet. Sometimes, when he talks to others, he appears reserved and lacks human emotion. It seems like there is a lot going on in his mind, and he generally keeps to himself.
There are various hints throughout the series that John harbors violent thoughts towards people he considers to be Satanists or cultists, imagining himself maniacally murdering them in hopes of dispelling evil and in some kind of twisted way for them to repent. Although he keeps these intrusive thoughts to himself, the hidden demonic entity that controls his nightmares subtly brings them up as a way to mentally torment him, as if he had truly committed those crimes. These thoughts become a reality after he is forcefully injected with a substance, causing him to lash out in a crazed, drug state that's heavily similar to how Thralls would typically behave, who're low-ranking cult members a part of the Eternal Order of the Second Death. In general, whenever John is influenced by anything demonic, it appears that his violent thoughts are manipulated and manifest as a potent force.
According to his psychiatric doctor, John suffers from mild anxiety and acute coulrophobia, which is a fear of clowns.
Status: Dating (non officially)
Met on: 04/11/1987
Started Dating: 06/09/1987
Extended info coming soon!!
